You know what sucks?
Having all your friends be online, who by the way are the best people I’ve ever known, and then having very limited internet access. I can’t talk to anyone, which certainly doesn’t help my mood.
I feel so alone without computer access, just have my phone and wifi, so I can’t even text or I’M because those have to go through data. I can’t talk to anyone directly, only in a roundabout way though messages on here, which are very limited and slow.
And possible the worst part about all of this is that my current lack of access is due to me being punished for having a mental illness and having a bad reaction to my meds being upped, something that isn’t exactly under my control.
So what this leads to is me being angry and depressed and even more anxious than normal, which makes me markedly less likely to be able to return to school, which will then prolong this punishment and perpetuate the cycle as it has every fall for the last few years.
You’d really think that between my psychologist and parents, they’d have figured this out after I’ve told them what’s going on, but I guess not.
